Thursday, September 25, 2008

Writer's Workshop Thursday

Moma Kat gave us 3 options, I chose this one...

3.) Write a letter to someone you miss greatly

A letter to my boys:

Dear Stormy and Jordan,
I miss you guys so much. It's been about 3 years since you went to live with your dad. I knew that day would come eventually, I just didn't think it would come as soon as it did. Although it sadens me, I understand why you both wanted to go. You needed to be with him. You needed to get to know him. You needed to learn from him and you needed to learn about the other half of yourselves. I hope you truely understand that the only reason I kept you from him after we split up when you were little is because he was not good with little ones. He didn't have the patience to deal with small children. I was protecting you, plus I was terrified that he wouldn't bring you back if I let you go visit him. That's why you could only go with your grandmother, she gave me her word that she would bring you back. She made sure that you got to see your dad while you were visiting her, I knew this.

Anyway, have I mentioned that I miss you? Only seeing you once a month is not enough for me. You guys are my babies and I think about you every day. Hey! What happened to "Call your Mom Sunday"? I know both of you are busy with football and band and friends and girlfriends and school and home and stuff but it wouldn't hurt you to call me once in a while. Everytime I call, you're not around. When your dad calls me with updates, you're not around. I just miss you. I miss hearing you talk and laugh. I miss seeing you sleep. I miss watching you play. I miss doing things with you. I miss cooking for you. I miss teaching you things. I miss grabbing you and forcing you to endure my attack of kisses. I miss telling you good night and good morning. I miss seeing you off to school and coming home to you after work.

Are you ever going to come back home? This is the part that makes me drop a few tears. I really thought that both of you would be back by now. A long time ago actually. Am I not going to get to see you off to your Proms? I'm supposed to annoy you by making you stand still beside your date so I can take pictures. And what about graduation? I'm supposed to throw you a big graduation party and invite all your friends, how can I do that when you live so far away?

Ok, I have to bring this letter to a close now because I'm at work and people are starting to ask me if I'm ok. I just smile and blame it on alergies.

I miss you both and can't wait to see you again.


I hope you come home soon.

*For some crazy reason, I cannot paste Mama Kat's button, it keeps telling me that the tag is not closed? I have no idea what that means...


Joanna said...

It brought a tear to my eyes! A mothers love never dies! and never can be denided..."Years and Years may pass us by, but my love for you will will never die"

Rachel said...

Ok first of all; what a lovely letter and my heart is hurting right now...I have no idea what you are doing through but if I were divorced and my kids wanted to live with their dad I would be sooo sad; and yet you are sooo selfless...your the best! I hope you get to be with them very soon! A son needs their mother's love!!!

I love your posts as always and glad we met on line and your so close...LOVE THAT! We will get together soon and have a sappy session over some drinks!

Ok secondly what is a dang tag and how do you make one LOL?

Tina said...

Knowing those two boys personally, they are feeling the same, however you taught them many things to live by when they were young, and one was that Mom would always be there....
You started the foundation to who they are today, and what a great job you did.....GO GIRL.........
Love ya,

Tanya said...

omg, totally crying over here. beautiful letter & i hope that you will be with them again soon!

Solei said...

Oh my! Your boys are so lucky to have such a loving and selfless mother that let them go live with Dad. I'm so sorry.
Here's hoping things will change soon!

And thanx 4 the babysitting offer! You are nice like that, loL!

Well, I'm jealous... you and rachel live close to each other and are gonna get together for drinks... I wanna come!!! yes, I'm whining, but I wanna come!!!

Tiaras and Tantrums said...

oh - that is too sad - your heart must break everyday - although you may have it under a heavy locked door by now!

Weeksie50 said...

Oh how very sad. I am sorry that you are separated from your boys. I don't have kids of my own but I know the seperation must hurt. What a selfless act on your part. Your strength amazes me..

Krazy Armstrong K's! said...

Awww I cant imagine! HUGS!

Mama's Losin' It said...

Oh this sounds like a nightmare!! It would eat away at me like it's eating away at you. They don't call because they're kids and they don't know how to appreciate their parents yet. They'll come around.

And I agree with Rachel...letting them live with their Dad shows that you really care about allowing them to explore the other side of themselves. You're a good mom.

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