Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Change

change happens.
it can happen in an instant or it can happen over time. sometimes we have control over it and sometimes we dont. some changes are good while others are bad. i know of a woman whose 19 year old son was recently killed in a car accident. that change was instant, she had no control over it and it was bad. i also know of a woman who just moved into her brand new home. her change took years of hard work and it is good. change changes you.
right now, im changing. life as i know it is changing. ive wanted and asked certain changes so in a way, its good. but its also a little scary. at work, i have a new boss. i didn't really ask for that so to speak but its turned out pretty god. i like her, she seems to be very nice and easy to get along with. my job has changed to part time now, i asked for that too, sort of. i like my hours, there are no traffic issues going to or from work anymore, praise God for that! its gonna suck come payday though but hey, i was willing to not work at all (and still am, just not quite today.
**im in the living room and i can hear my hubby snoring through the bedroom wall, with the door closed. thats funny.**
i woke up at 2am and layed there for 45 minutes unable to go back to sleep. i went to bed at 8 so i guess my body felt like it had had enough sleep so i went ahead and got up and decided to blog since i havent had time to during the last month. its actually pretty nice sitting here all by myself, in the quiet. no t.v., no one talking...i think ill listen to some music...
ahh, conway twitty says hello darling. i forgot i had this music on here. i love old country, it reminds me of when i was little. now its dolly begging jolene not to take her man. i heard a newer version of this song recently, i really liked it.
anyway, back to changes. i can see many more changes coming my way.
d.i.v.o.r.c.e.
no, not me, it's tammy wynette. i told you i love old country music. it think she and george jones are my most favorites.
it looks like we'll be moving in a few months. theres just no way for us to keep the house at this point. im not really upset about it. i guess its because i look forward to a simpler way of living. smaller house and smaller yard means less to clean and keep. if you dont have room for a bunch of junk, then you cant keep a bunch of junk, right? ive started thinking about what i want to keep and what i want to get rid of. i have way more than i need. take dishes for instant. i have 6 pyrex casserole dishes. who in the world needs that many casserole dishes? ive never made more than one casserole at a time. useless stuff taking up space, thats all that is. my sister in law teases me about my dish fetish. shes right though, its rediculous. and mixing bowls. i bet i have at least 10 of those things! theres glass ones, plastic ones, stainless steele ones, ceramic ones, where does it end? im proud though that i have started a yard sale box. now in my cabinet, i only have 2 casserole dishes, a small one for brownies and a large one for casseroles. im down to one set of stainless steele mixing bowls. i dumped a complete set of silverware, a bunch of serving utensiles and several pots and pans. hows that for change?
ronnie milsap, any day now. this stuff is great!
i have so many things that i dont need. i have a china cabinet full of stuff that i never use. but, i have another china cabinet that i absolutely love. my best friends mother gave it to me. its an antique, its smaller than your normal china cabinet and i fell in love with it the instant i saw it.
stand by your man. boy did that song create a bunch of stink back in its day. i personally love the song, and i love what it means. i know my man isnt perfect but i stand by him because i love him.
my crystal cabinet knobs. i have to take those with me. hubby bought them for me for christmas. i can put them on the cabinets at the new place and on the dresser that my sister in law gave me, it was hers growing up, from ethan allen i think, a nice sturdy piece of furniture. right now it holds fabric but when we move, ill get rid of the dresser thats currently in my room and ill use the better one. the crystal knobs will be a cute touch i think.
oooh! johnny cash! i like him too.
we have a big glass desk that we dont need, it only holds clutter anyway. we also have more furniture than we really need. id really like to say goodbye to my 1990's country style dinning room table with the claw feet and get a smaller, round, dark wood table like the ones we have at work. and id love to get rid of our country plaid couch and love seat and just have a good, worn in, brown leather sofa. we like our recliners so for right now i plan to keep them. we have a big 'ol square, brass plate covered coffee table that i absolutely hate. i move it when the baby is here cuz im scared to death that shes gonna fall on it and gash her little face. that's gone for sure!
vince gill, go rest high on that mountain. this song makes me cry.
i hope we find a little place that someone just wants to get rid of cheap. maybe even free. sometimes people have mobile homes that that they just want gone. that would be fine with me, no house payment or rent. we could handle just a land payment. i really want a simpler life, not a material filled life. i dont need to have all the finer things in life the way the world tells me i do. i can be perfectly comfortable in my little single wide (thats paid for) on my little lot with my little flower garden at the end of a little dirt road, with my little granny car (thats paid for), with my not so little husband and his beat up pick up truck (thats paid for). Trey is about to leave the nest and i think cory secretly plans to go back to his moms when we move, hes hinted about it a few times. theres another change, hubby and i being by ourselves, empty nesters. imagine that. now who couldn't live on one income in a little bitty empty nest like that?
i hope we can. its what id like.
change. sometimes its good.
theres george jones again with he stopped loving her today, this one makes me cry too.

5 comments:

Yvette said...

I should beat you!
I do not like Country music!
But now all I have is You picked a fine time to leave me Lucille in my head! I don't even know if that was on your list! They don't make music like that anymore.

Rachel said...

Sooooo glad to hear from you. Change Change Change...your right we have no control but to go with it and learn what we are meant to learn.

Anonymous said...

change can be hard to do ,but we all change from day to day...our thoughts ,our minds or things that we just do not have any control over! I believe that change will be best for us in the long run. and that we will see why "one" day! Try to look for the best reason this change will be good for you in the long run ,not the bad ! And keep an open mind, You will be OK !!

Jenn Mosley said...

I love reading your blogs.... :) keeping up with you guys! isn't that terrible that life is so busy. My New Years Resolution - to hopefully hang out more. Hey am I getting one of those umpa loofas? neat-O

Anonymous said...

Change, can be heart-breaking,Sometimes "we" make changes that we don't see how it will change not only our lives ,but so many that we love!And the change can hurt us all.We did not mean for the change to be this way! Not to hurt so bad! Or to cause hurt on our loved ones! To be "not" there when needed,or to be needed...I'm so sorry that the change I made in my life caused me to miss out on life that meant so much to me!

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